Goofy Words

its 4 am, the coffees on.
the feelings have withdrawn.
im not upset, im not bemused.
the only thing thats different is my bodies abused.

i take the beatings im handed out.
another chance to redoubt
everything thats happened so far
my patience is sub par

the moon light glows
just like the sink overflows.
the windows open and the hose connected
to everyone but me this is unexpected.

Monoxide lullabies sing my brain to sleep
as they overcome and begin to seep.
im passive and willing
to let something else do the killing.

Plaster that goofy smile on now
and start to disavowe
anything anyone has ever said
just remember theyll wind up dead.